Wednesday, August 24, 2011

just cos I don't want to forget this quote

You cannot rouse the animal in a person and then expect it to be put aside at a moment’s notice.
-either said by a WW1 general or Russell Brand I cannot find a reliable source :)

Sometimes I feel like people expect this of me. A lot. It’s like they push me just to see how far I’ll go before I break.

Also, I think the Russell BRAND is insane for not capitalizing on his name as a brand. Just saying.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

On the vote to legalize gay marriage

Republican New York State Senator Roy McDonald,

"You get to the point where you evolve in your life where everything isn't black and white, good and bad, and you try to do the right thing," McDonald, 64, told reporters. "You might not like that. You might be very cynical about that. Well, fuck it, I don't care what you think. I'm trying to do the right thing. "I'm tired of Republican-Democrat politics. They can take the job and shove it. I come from a blue-collar background. I'm trying to do the right thing, and that's where I'm going with this."

Word Senator, word.

Friday, June 3, 2011

To those of you
who defend the defenseless
To those of you
who rage in the face of truth
To those of you
who think stoicism is noble

fuck you.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I've been doing a lot of research about organic food lately, or rather non-organic food, and it's making me kind of sick. It's making me sick that our government spends so much money on defense when really, we need saving from ourselves. Or rather from corporations. from soulless individuals. from the very science that often saves our lives. from greed.

I don't understand why the food practices that are in place aren't at the forefront of politics. I do understand though, I understand it's greed, I understand it's power and fear and secrets. So many secrets. It's not in politics because people are afraid of getting sued. The Oprah show was sued  in 1996 for having a man on who warned about the dangers of mad cow disease. Can I just say WTF?!?! How can you be sued for passing on information that might be vital to one's health? How can you be sued in AMERICA with our right to FREE SPEECH for exposing the health risks that food companies are exposing us unwitting consumers to? Oh, because the food company says so.

"Thirteen states to date have enacted "food disparagement" laws. Under previous laws, the food industry bore the burden of proof. In order to win a libel case, it had to prove that its critics were deliberately and knowingly circulating false information.
Under the new laws, however, it doesn't matter that Lyman believes in his statements, or even that he can produce scientists who will support him. The industry will be able to convict him of spreading "false information" if it can convince a jury that his statements on the Oprah show deviated from "reasonable and reliable scientific inquiry, facts, or data"--a legal standard which gives a clear advantage to the multi-billion-dollar beef industry, particularly in Texas cattle country --and particularly with respect to mad cow disease, an exotic illness whose characteristics continue to baffle researchers."

I know this is old news, but it's new to me and I'm mad that I'm being lied to every time I go in to a store or buy a product. I seriously doubt anything in my house (aside from the now organic food) does not contain harmful chemicals that are obviously being marketed as safe. 

I found this on a forum and I think it's a pretty good campaign for organic food all by itself (though perhaps with a little rewording):
"It appears the bugs and insects 
have more sense not to eat sprayed food. 
We humans have a lot to learn from them." 

Saturday, April 16, 2011


We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, 
but rarely admit the changes it has gone through
to achieve that beauty.

- Maya Angelou

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:

where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. "
Pablo Neruda

Friday, April 8, 2011

beautiful people

Prison Break is basically a drool fest.

Wentworth Miller

Dominic Purcell


“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. 
The mind is everything. What we think, we become.”
 - Buddha


U kno wut? I h8 abbreviations.

and I find it kind of ironic that the word abbreviation 
does not have an abbreviation when it could,
quite possibly, be in need of one.

also, i hate capital letters.


I've always thought the internet needed more ads.

Thursday, March 31, 2011


"Conventional people are roused to fury
by departure from convention, 
largely because they regard such departure
as a criticism of themselves."

~Bertrand Russell

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

pretty, pretty

I really want one of these

Yoshino Cherry Tree


"... to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on 4 days notice because you cant just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone's idea of love but it is the way i can recognize it because that is what i do..."

Tuesday, March 29, 2011


Push-up bikini tops for children. WTF is this world coming to.
If I ever have a little girl she won't even be wearing a bikini,
let alone a push-up bikini top!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011


"I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me, or him, or anybody. Some things don't last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest times, pressing down the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there."
Sarah Dessen (This Lullaby)

Saturday, March 19, 2011


I am a human being.
I am flawed. I am disoriented. 
I am aged beyond my years. I am naive. 
I am frightened. I am insecure. I am confounded. 
I feel too much. I think too little. I am numb. I think too much.
I am mortified. I am calamitous.
I am deplorable. I am broken.
I am sorry, so sorry.

I am affectionate.
I am happy. I am vibrant. I am content. 
I am playful. I am peaceful. I am fortunate. 
I am good-natured. I am soft-hearted. I am intelligent. 
I am a listener. I am good. I am alive. 
I am simple. I am complex.
I am a human being.
 I am sorry.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

stafford, william

They miss the whisper that runs
any day in your mind,
"Who are you really, wanderer?"--
and the answer you have to give
no matter how dark and cold
the world around you is:
"Maybe I'm a king."

Friday, February 25, 2011


Words That Don’t Exist in the English Language:
(that I didn't know we needed until I saw this)

Gheegle: (Filipino) The urge to pinch or squeeze something that is unbearably cute.

Cualacino: (Italian) The mark left on a table by a cold glass.

Sgriob: (Gaelic) The itchiness that overcomes the upper lip just before taking a sip of whisky

L’esprit de escalier: (French) The feeling you get after leaving a conversation, when you think of all the things you should have said. Translated it means “the spirit of the staircase.”

Pari-pari and Saku-saku: (Japanese) Hard-crispy verses Soft-crispy, i.e. a rice cracker versus fried chicken

Stam: (Hebrew) An agreement out of amusement and frustration that something doesn’t have a satisfactory answer among those talking.

Forelsket: (Norwegian) The euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love.

Pena ajena: (Mexican Spanish) The embarrassment you feel watching someone else’s humiliation.

via soupsoup:lovepuppy

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Thursday, February 17, 2011

poe, e.

Sometimes I’m terrified of my heart; of its constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. The way it stops and starts."

Sunday, February 6, 2011


For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these,
It might have been’.



dolce far niente

the sweetness of doing nothing

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

crimson fields

I'm not really sure if this is possible,
but one day
I'd like to swim in a flooded cranberry field.

I'm sure this isn't entirely advisable,
but it's on my bucket list nonetheless.

Thursday, January 27, 2011


love these ones:

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” Billy – age 4

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” Terri – age 4

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby – age 7

Friday, January 21, 2011

The four immeasurables

May all beings have happiness and the causes of happiness.

May all beings be free from suffering and the causes of suffering.

May all beings rejoice in the well-being of others.

May all beings live in peace, free from greed and hatred.
Metta Sutta

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

margaret atwood

...I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.


why would you do this?

I mean candy corn has its place, but it's sure not on your hands.
How do you even use your hands like this?!?

bread disaster

I tried to make a loaf of bread,
but I think something went wrong...

horribly wrong.
Although, I must admit it is quite delicious.

Friday, January 14, 2011

I hate that people don't say what they mean.
I hate that people can't say what they feel.

It drives me mad to try and figure you out.

george wildman ball

nostalgia is a seductive liar

Thursday, January 13, 2011


"I don't understand French, but if I could, I would write beautiful songs about horrible things... because it is said to be the language of love and romance... and if love didn't exist, there wouldn't be any horrible things. You must care to cry, love something in order to hate something... You must have a heart in order for it to be broken. Many people walk in a dream. They feel entitled to happiness and feel anger when it is not waiting for them. I know that the world owes me nothing, yet has given me a great deal. It is our own perception we get to bend and mold to our liking- once that is accomplished, the reality we once knew begins to change."

"Uzbekistan" by The Sounds of Animals Fighting

Monday, January 10, 2011


"...Aristophanes tells a tale in Plato's Symposium of how there were originally three sexes: man, woman, and a union of the two. These primeval creatures were round and had twin sets of arms and legs, and could essentially cart-wheel around. They grew strong and attacked the gods, attempting to scale heaven itself.
Fearing that the humans had grown too strong, Zeus decided to split them down the middle, dividing and diffusing humans into the form we have today. Love, Aristophanes continues, is the reuniting of the original couple:

And when one of them meets with his other half, the actual half of himself, whether he be a lover of youth or a lover of another sort, the pair are lost in an amazement of love and friendship and intimacy, and one will not be out of the other's sight, as I may say, even for a moment: these are the people who pass their whole lives together, and yet they could not explain what they desire of one another."
Michael Bruce, Jan 2011, Psychology Today

Sunday, January 9, 2011


I'm not usually one to make "new years resolutions"
but I made such a mess of last year
I decided it might be prudent this year.

So this year I'm going to :
  • make my people as happy as I can
  • actually try to do really well in school and put aside my apparently crippling fear of failing
  • try to get some perspective when I start feeling stressed out
  • read more novels and sciency things
  • find my spiritual center, but I don't really know what that means
  • learn to cook fancily
  • do a better job growing my garden, my carrots looked like tiny stunted feet
  • find a job that makes me happy, or at least rich
  • get healthy, like inside outside, food is feul kind of healthy
Hold me to it.

True Grit

" I don't deal in hypotheticals, the world is vexing enough as it is."

Go see it.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Laundry List

Laundry List:
  • Tuesday - drywall hanging
  • Wednesday - upper cabinets
  • Thursday - lower cabinets
  • Friday - counter tops
  • Monday - APPLIANCES! and kitchen backsplash
  • Tuesday - dishwasher, disposal, and fridge water lines, grout backsplash
  • Wednesday - Cabinet doors, under counter lighting, carpenter activites
  • Thursday - Tile second bedroom
  • Friday - Grout second bedroom
!!!! DONE !!!!

•utility/laundry room - to be tiled
•second bedroom - to be tiled
•Vast amounts of new furniture - to be bought

Monday, January 3, 2011

Remodel #3

The kitchen is now dissolving.

The oddly placed door had to be moved first.

The "before" shot.

and then it was gone

Today the electrician came and really destroyed it.

Laundry List:
  • Tuesday - drywall hanging
  • Wednesday - upper cabinets
  • Thursday - lower cabinets
  • Friday - counter tops
  • Monday - APPLIANCES!
  • utility/laundry room - to be tiled
  • second bedroom - to be tiled
  • Vast amounts of new furniture - to be bought


remodel #2

When the living room was almost done,
the bathroom melted into chaos.

The pipes in here had to go too.

 They found roots growing underneath the tiles!

I skipped the boring drywall stage
in favor of the beginnings of our fully tiled walls.

These pictures may be slightly out of order, but this is the start of our shower floor.

It's almost there!

Then the glass blocks went in and the window was done.

 Almost done, just the glass shower door and coverplates to go!

Finished product to come!